3am Confessions (2013 re-write)

My tongue held for the moment

I wait & write in the dark

for Anonymity.. for Inspiration;

for confessor’s release… for sleeper’s Reward.

Is it vanity or pride -saving one’s tongue for script?

Is it safer?

Does the time elapsed from mind… to hand… 

to pen… to paper

cause truer aim or allow prideful embellishment?

History proves the point - what one writes one “wills” True, regardless of reality or the perceptions of those around us. 

We write memoirs;

not as a last chance at redemption

but as an opportunity, perhaps, to create an extension of one’s self,

which, like a child, will grow with the ages…

be reinterpreted, reincarnated and repackaged to suit the times..

a message, bound in a leather bottle, tossed into the universe;

a message… communicated across the boundaries of time and death if worthy.

Or at minimum, a confession to a blank faced witness - the only thing in the present that knows the truths that have made you as you are and as you see yourself to be… and so… 

I write….

My tongue held for the moment

I wait in the dark

I write in the dark

For anonymity

For inspiration

For confessions’  release

For sleeper’s reward.

Writing...free flowin in the dark…

Waiting for sleep…

Stealing comforts from the rhythmic sound

of a rotating fan

instead of a warm heart beat and embrace.

Is it vanity or pride…

Saving one’s tongue for script?

Is it safer?

Does the time.. elapsed

from mind… to hand… to pen… to paper

cause truer aim…

or allow prideful embellishment?

What solace….

Even prisoners are allowed to write memoirs..

not as a last chance at redemption

but as a last chance to create an extension of one’s self.

which, like a child, will grow with the ages…

be reinterpreted

reincarnated to suit the times..

a message communicated across the boundaries of time and death

if worthy…

Or at minimum…

a confession to a blank faced witness

the only thing in the present that knows the truths

that have made you as you are and as you see yourself to be…