Fallacious Regret (2013 re-write)

Sly

Smooth

Silky mofo

I know you

I wanted you

I had you;

witting alone, feeling a sack of used parts

I regret you.

Like a plague of locusts

a carousel of thoughts bombard me;

“I didn’t mean to make contact… should have avoided the trap, snaring me into a catatonic state of blissful denial…! Stuck in our time.. your story, making me reminisce the undone.. the unsaid, and all sort of base bestial and vampiric things; shouldn’t have let you touch me, quickening, like quick silver, the poison in my veins; Touch, Touch, T.O.U.C.H, suspended in time, molten lava touch, making my defenses steam like a fresh carcass. I shouldn’t have displayed myself to your fleshy altar.!”

and I can’t honestly despair now, 

when after all the wet stiffness,

the fantasies didn’t come true;

Now, in the after shock, stewing in denial & guilt

trying to convince myself I was an “accidental” participant of my own demise; capable of blaming no one, 

despising my senses for their vivid support;

I cringe from the me

that embraced the Devil…

and Liked it!!

Sly

Smooth

Silky mofo

I know you

I wanted you

I had you

Sitting alone, feeling a sack of used parts

I regret you.

Like a plague of locusts

A carousel of thoughts bombard me…

“I didn’t mean to make contact… should have avoided the trap of your face

Your eyes snaring me into a catatonic state of blissful denial…!”

Stuck in our time.. your story

Making me reminisce the undone.. the unsaid

And all sort of base bestial and vampiric things

I shouldn’t have let you touch me

Quickening, like quick silver, the poison in my veins

Touch

Touch

T.O.U.C.H

Suspended in time

Molten lava touch

Making my defenses steam like a fresh carcass.

I shouldn’t have displayed myself to your fleshy altar.

I shouldn't despair now…

When after all the wet stiffness

The fantasies didn’t come true…

Now.. in the after shock

Stewing in denial & guilt

I sit here

Trying to convince myself

I was an accidental participant of my own demise…

Capable of blaming no one

Despising my senses for their vivid support…

Cringing from the Me

That embraced the Devil…

And Liked it!!