She Should Have Listened When You Self Identified As a Narcissist

You didn't love her
you loved her cunt
moist, inviting
flexible, forgiving
mailable and submissive
her cunt took a beating and whimpered for more
her cunt didn't question your sense of authority
her demands simple - slower, faster, harder, deeper, a little to the left
oohhh yeah
but no
you didn't love her
you loved her cunt. 

Mind and heart were bridges too far to warrant
interest, memory, genuine consideration or curiosity.

Uglies well matched, had their own conversation
your mind focused on a new conquest
a new willing supplier
as your ill intent, cloaked in charm
planned her inevitable dismissal.
without thought, guilt, or appreciation

Stuck on transient interludes
you manhandle, control and abandon
on a whim
a narcissistic succubus
avoiding the pain you fear to acknowledge
while carelessly doling it out
hurting yourself in a self perpetuating
purgatorial cycle of Bacchanalian proportions
while crying victim
to your next victim.

Greedy Lovers' Gamble

We ate greedily
from each others plates
until our stomachs bulged on the gluttony of fantasy
buckets of bones, what ifs and regrets
a salty compost to soak our wounds
and drown our willfully manufactured sorrows in. 

Reaching for the menu with sticky hands
knowing it's poison
we consumed it anyway
for while we were taught all sinners 

deserve to die, 

experience proves

neither sinners nor saints can experience heaven

without sacrifice or pain.  

Love Isn't Lost - It's Re-Written

Love isn't lost

it's rewritten

beaten into submission

by deceit, broken promises and disappointment

by disrespect and neglect.

It festers and turns on itself

alchemy at its finest

brewing until it thickens into unbridled resentment

as wounded egos seek absolution in retorts never given

self preservation drives the mind to assign blame

while praying it was all just a nightmare.

Rock, Paper, Reality

She was never his.
He was never hers

The words
scripts said on a stage of their choosing
an attempt
to experience what t hey most desired
surrender to raw vulnerability, need, and 
the award for wholeness, fulfillment, solid ground
with someone they trusted
albeit transiently.

In the moment they lived an loved
gave and accepted
and it was Brilliant. 

Until the lives they'd previously sought and nurtured
honor required response
the aether burst
the script forgotten
the dreams forsaken.